Looking Deep

     Ever been stuck?  Have you tried to accomplish something, and it just never seems to work out?  We are human, and we all experience that to some degree, at some point, but are you just at a point where you are over it?  Done?   I've been at this point this week, and wanted to share it here, in hopes that it will be of help to those readers who are going through the same thing.

     Waking up one morning, I was thinking of a particular goal I have been working on for YEARS, and it just hasn't come to fruition.  As I thought more and more about it, the more I felt "over it".  I was done, tired.  Why should I continue to pursue it?  So I "decided" that I was going to let that goal go, finally.  

    Of course, with my personality, I can't just let it go. I HAVE to know why.  Why did all the opportunities fall apart?  So I decided to tap with EFT, and work through the levels of it.  What was causing what I thought I wanted to be pushed away from me so often?

    The beauty of EFT lies in how it evolves what is happening at the deepest levels, and leads to new insights and understandings.  As I tapped, I could feel my energy begin to shift.  At this point, allow me to digress for a moment.  I believe in the law of attraction, and that we attract what we resonate with.  Now, to me, I always wanted to be a big success, especially in this particular goal.  So why was I attracting such failure? I knew that, somehow, there had to be an answer.  The Law ALWAYS works, without exception.  This was where EFT's gift was given to me.

    As I continued to tap, to go "free flow", the understanding, the insight, came to me.  The Law WAS working!  At a deep part of myself, there was an aspect that remembered being made fun of so often as a kid.  That aspect, after years of emotional ups and downs, decided that there was something wrong with him. After all, if there wasn't, why would so many make fun of me?  Besides, that aspect took in his environment. Being born and raised in a lower middle class neighborhood in Brooklyn, this aspect saw how those around him lived, from his family, to his neighbors.  They were the "lunch pail" crowd. They simply went to work, came home, had a beer or two, watched TV, then went to bed, only to do it all again the next day.  There was a comfort in that predictability, a safety, and that aspect was so central, so core, that it exuded this resonance.  I was resonating with the "Brooklyn lunch pail" !   The Law was working!  That part of me decided to just go along, to actually fear success, with the background energy always being, "There has to be something wrong with me anyway."  

    THAT explained it!  THAT explained the ups and downs, and the countless opportunities that would come and go, always leading to nothing.   I was on the trail of it now.  So I continued to tap.  Then another aspect revealed itself.  The one who knew of all the gifts I had been given by my Creator. My intellect, my intuition, my caring, my ability to quickly read and understand people, my desire to help people.  That aspect DID want to succeed, and knew it was entitled to.  The tapping went on, going deeper.  As I worked, that enlightened aspect shined so brightly, it could no longer be ignored.  "Why do you hide in the shadows? In fear?  Do you really think God would have given you all these gifts just to be average and hide?"  Talk about an evolution of all of this!   Of course, as I tapped, I knew more and more the answer to those questions.  I wasn't to hide, I wasn't to fear, and most of all, there was NOTHING wrong or unworthy about me.  

    Success really doesn't have to be difficult, I came to start to understand. I don't have to be "someone else" to attain it, either.  Maybe, just maybe, I could hope one more time.  Maybe, just maybe, now that my deepest core is beginning to resonate at a different energy vibration, that the opportunities could actually work out.  Maybe I could continue to share, and see what happens.....

    How about you?   

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